an update

Yes I realized I haven't write for quite sometimes. Being occupied doing lab work and classes plus I don't really love the idea of telling everyone everything about me and my daily life. So dont ask me to upload my Raya pictures in facebook,I didnt upload my Raya pictures since 2006,neither on fs nor in fb,why do now?because it is so not me.People stand for their principle,I had mine,deal with it and im not the narcist whom take my own pic using my blackberry every each single day.No I dont.

I did write 3-4 posts which after I finished writing it,I dont publish it. I just wont tell with whom im having sahur and buka puasa with or even what i bought for the certain someone.

Yesterday was Liana(the bestfren) last night here in Jogja,the place I stayed n study for almost 4 year now.
So I invited Sudin to have dinner with us since im close too sudin too.(Yes I came back a few days early,to have the Jogja holiday with her and plus,I got Car here,what do u expect me to do?leave it for 2 weeks without starting the engine,the car battery can go weak ok.)

While having dinner,we kinda have what sudin called as"heavy talks",Sudin,since when does we have not have one?(the heavy talks)..
On my way back to my home,while I was driving,Sudin suddenly came up again with a question that ound like this: "Fatin,u pilih lelaki yang pakai kereta ke,pakai motor besar ke or moto bese-bese je macam scooter"
Liana pula make a correction of Sudin question by :"sudin you should ask her,fatin u pilih lelaki naik kereta mercedes ke naik kereta brand malaysia"
I was like,EH! sudin kenapa tanya soalan macam tu? and said to liana eh i tak kesah la naik mercedes ke tak,I pun org biasa-biasa je.

Few months ago,i closed and private my blog to few invited readers.why?(because the idea of everyone reading about my private life)..and now in new blog,hoping (as a vain)  in attempt to forget the past,because someone who looked too long at the past will certainly miss the future!.
But today,im glad I did what I did.
A few regrets that i've had to live along the way
and a few things that I have to try to fix it.

" Maybe some friendships aren't meant to be saved. maybe we're meant to spend a certain part of our life with certain people and then move on."

So bila orang tanya I,kenapa Im still single sedangkan I can have one
or kadang-kadang orang cakap I terlalu memilih or even cakap I jual mahal or standard I terlalu tinggi for a guy;
Its because the last time I opened my heart to a guy,He take it for granted,some of them just doesnt know that I had lowered my standard to be with them and still,they didnt even know how to thank you for that.
Buat perangai macam-macam,and than said back to me that Im not sure with you because u're a rich girl and came from rich family,the way u being raised and Im being raised is different.Im afraid of it.Alasan je sume tu sebab kau dah mula buat perangai. It aint worth it folks.It just ain't.
So,why on earth should we settle for second best?So that yo can get your heart trashed by those second best?I really dont think so!.

Here is a quote from Shakespeare that I like..
"When I got Enough confidence, the stage was gone. When I was sure of losing, I won. When I needed people the most, they went left me. When I learned to dry my tears, I found a shoulder to cry on. When I mastered the skill of Hating, somebody started loving me. When after waiting for dawn, I feel Asleep,, The Sun Came out. That's Life "


when i started to accept that certain someone,he's gone.thats my life.


I think i had answered most of all of ur guys questions..cheers!
I had a lifetime to find the other half,the soulmate,the one who can fix the puzzle in my heart,ain't I rite Liana?

and it wasnt too late to wish for HAPPY EID EVERYONE!sorry for all the wrong doings,from the bottom of my heart.

from jogja,with love :)